love is just another word for pain
it's a broken record repeating the same thing
when you want it it's not there
when you have it you don't care
and when you lose it all in the end...
its just another heartbreak

she took him down and said:
"boy's like you are overrated. so save your breath."
loaded words and loaded friends
are loaded guns to our heads

Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I've learned to love the lie.

we scream our insecurities,          
but mutter our apologies.
and that's why this world will
always be so wrong. 

Why do people gotta do t h i s?
Make me feel like I'm w o r t h l e s s

my mommy found me in my room on the floor. before I did this I put my ‘don’t disturb’ sign on my door but now as she looks at me with blood flowing from my wrist. she picks up a note that reads something like this.

Mom, I know I never told youu. never showed it in my face but i`ll tell youu now, my life was a disgrace. I never planned a future `cus I knew my life would end & now as I write this, youu were my only friend. I never meant to hurt youu, I never meant to break your heart just keep on living and we`ll never be apart. tell daddy that I love him. tell sis and brother to be brave & promise me this on my birthday, ever year put a rose on my grave. I love youu mommy, very much and when the others cry, tell them I hated them all. each cut will tell them why I must go now mommy death is calling my name. and when youu see me dead mommy, don`t put on yourself the blame. i`m picking up the knife right now mommy these tears for youu I cry I just made the first cut mommy, I guess now i`ll say goodbye.

I guess my smile isn't hiding my tears today
& everyone is asking me 'what happened'
They all want to know 'why i am having a bad day'
Well Nothing happened today. It was just a day. An ordinary day preceded by 13 bad years

toniight a razor asked my wrist
to kiss it one last time

please.....take this razor blade from
my hand and promise me you'll never
give it back to me

lets celebrate a romance all in it toniight
i put all my faith in this knife
the blood spills as the tears fall
from your eyes

a safety pin and your wrist
the modern pen and paper

blood kissed lips with
scars on her wrists
you'd never have thought
it would come to this

every 18 minutes someone dies from a suicide
every 43 seconds someone attempts one

she cut more & more
her arm was now full of lines
her artistic way of doing with
instead of complaints and whines

roses are red. violets are blue.
sugar is sweet & so are you.
but the roses are wilting,
the violets are dead.
the sugar bowl is empty
& my wrists are stained red

All alone, sitting in the pouring rain.
Trying to forget all her agony && pain.
The lies she keeps from family && friends.
Will this nonsense ever end?
They would never suspect this mutilating act.
Not from her, pain's a feeling she lacks.
"She's always so happy!" That's what they all think.
They don't know, in her skin razors sink.
The crimson color flows as she kneels over and cries.
She breaths her last few breaths.
This is her suicidal good-bye.

i [[wish]] i was [[PeRfEcT]]

&& who is going to
be there to heal the
wounds she carved
in herself ?

&& the thing she hates most
is her [[own reflection]]

pretending that I’m ok is better than letting it show
because the questions that they want to know
remind me of the reasons for my pain
and their sympathy & fakeness are the same

you'll never know what it's like to be me
to spend half your day being someone
your not.. & then going home to be
something you never intended to be. </3

The tears take control, its addicting… but she hides them and tells herself it’ll be okay. But, that’s the part that hurts the most. It’s a lie. All of it was. Everything was. The taste of tears is sadly not new to her.

No one knows the real me.
No one knows what I’m thinking.
No one understands me.
No one knows how i really feel.
No one knows what I’m like under this mask.
No one cares that they hurt me..<|3

she dosent know whats right
& she dosent know whats wrong
she only knows that the pain comes
from waiting for him so long
& she dosent count the teardrops
that shes cried while hes away
cause she knows deep downin her heart
that he'll be back someday

It wasn't a suicide attempt,
It was an escape from everything awful.
When we cut, we control our own pain,
and we can make it stop whenever we want.
Physical pain relieves mental anguish.
For that brief moment the pain of cutting
is the only thing on the cutter's mind.
And when the others come back, they're weaker.
Drugs do that too, but nothing like cutting.
Nothing is like cutting.

a diary under the mattress
drugs beneath the bed
a body on the bedroom floor
one gunshot to the head
black clothes in the closet
depressing pictures on the wall
letters written to a special someone
begging him to call
a mother crying
a dad out of state
she was always fast asleep
when her parents came home late
all she wanted was acceptance
for someone to say they tried
each time someone abandoned her
another piece of her died
the ambulance out side her house
neighbours came to see what she'd done
she finally told the world how she felt
with the sound of daddys gun

its so hard to go on
like everythings ok
when inside i still cry for
memories of yesterday

Every time i hurt someone...
i go hurt myself
 so i will never forget the
 pain i caused them

in the corner of a room, all alone. she cries, on and on. the world doesnt care; to it she is a fool. she slides the blade across her wrist and whispers, "whose the fool now? your never saw my pain, and now im too far gone."

it`s so hard to be strong
when you love the thing
that makes you the
w e a k e s t

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do...

i smile and make you think i`m happy.
i talk and make you think that i love me.
i laugh so you don`t see me cry.
i look at you and hide the pain inside.
i feel myself dying, but you see me survive.

i love you like a
rock star loves his guitar

AND YOU KNOW WHAT ?
i WAiTED & WAiTED FOR YOU ..
TO ONLY KNOW THAT YOU WOULD
NEVER COME BACK TO ME__<|3

if crying is good for you  
then  i  gotta be the most  
healthiest person on earth

as a single tear falls from her cheek
she looks to him for comfort
& all he can do is look away.

It's 2 AM and
She's lying on her bed
Staring at the ceiling
All these thoughts in her head
Just so confused
Doesn't know what to do
In need of someone to talk to
But doesn't know who
So she just lies there.
Her eyes fixed on the ceiling
With her headphones blaring
But nothing, she's hearing.
NOTHiNG.

Kill me now
Do it slow
Cut my wrist
Watch it flow

I cut my wrist to feel alive,
 i watch the blood trip down and begin to cry,
when did life get so hard
and why didn't anyone warn me?

Tears fall down a broken girl’s eyes
Her family to mean to go to
Her friends betray her every move
Her mind telling her it’s to late
Her life seems just too hard
No one will notice my pain
Will they notice my death??

her wrist are covered in red lines, leaking out the blood & her sorrows. "it was bad blood," she'd say. "I'm not suicidal. i just want to be normal."

A child and his teddy bear ;
A baby and his blanket.
It's the same thing as ...
A girl and her knife.

I can't go on living this lie
today I choose to give in and die

when you attempt suicide & you fail,
it's like this big dissappointment cus
it's just one more thing you cant do right..

opens her eyes, look at her face, shes got makeup, all over the place, a tear on her cheek, falls to the floor, she turns away, walks to the door, she screams and yells, she continues to cry, shes alive on the outside, but the inside is gonna die, she cant take this any more, she takes a razor puts to her wrist, she watches a fountain appear, then all of a sudden, her problems disappear.

Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card.
Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.
Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.
Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.
Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life.
Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep.
Your perfect little girl used to slit her wrists 'till she bled.
Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen.
Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy.
Your perfect little girl doesn't go to church.
Your perfect little girl hates you.
Your perfect little girl has given up on life.
Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.
Your perfect little girl wants to run away.
Your perfect little girl has no real friends.
Your perfect little girl thinks she's overweight.
Your perfect little girl hasn't let you dry her tears.
Your perfect little girl disobeys you.
Your perfect little girl hates the world.
Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.
Your perfect little girl says bad things about you.
Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.
Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide.
Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.
Your perfect little girl....isn't so perfect anymore

the scratches on her wrist, tells a story
of a girl who gets so worked up over the
smallest things and dosen't know how to
deal with them. it's about a girl who
thinks she has tons of problems and tons
of issues that she can't explain how she
feels about them. she needs to open up.
she needs to let things go...

She sits and waits... Her eyes fight off the anticipated tears, she feels empty inside... So tired of everything and everyone, yet her biggest fear was being alone, shes numb to the world. Perfection is what she strived for... but she couldn't please everyone forever. She wipes her tears away and puts on a smile, she can only stand to fake it for a little while.

pretty little girl can't see the world
pretty little girl all locked up
pretty little girl has to be perfect
pretty little girl overwhelmed by everything
pretty little girl never does anything right
Pretty Little Girl Killed Herself Tonight

Let me tell you something I am alone, I have fake friends who dont care, I am sad, I write dark poems & hide a lot. You might think I'm funny & I appear happy with my fake smile but, funny enough, I fooled you all all I really want is to be loved I want you all to know my hurt. But no one will listen & no one cares so, I'm letting myself slowly fall apart.

She's not the kind of girl who likes to tell the
world about the way she feels about herself.

No one could feel the pain in my heart.
But worst of all; no one could
hear the screams of my soul.

I hurt, because nobody in the world,
knows who I am anymore.
I haven't told anyone my secrets,
and they haven't asked.
I'm so confused,
and just don't know what to do anymore.
Won't somebody please help me think this through

she`s telling everyone lies about how she feels inside. she can`t
stand the way things are now. she only wants it all to change.
what he doesn`t know is how much she truly cared.

Fight off your urges to say how you feel
It can only cause you problems tonight
Hold tight till you leave, then decide
Whether the timing was wrong, or was it right?

shes standing on the edge so scared
as shes looking down
theres nothing but the sound of her tears falling
she doesnt know why but she feels the world pulling her down
shes ready to jump but shes afraid of the fall
but shed rather be dead than be breathing at all

so go on;;
let her bottle up her feelings while
she sits on the edge of her bed,
wondering why she deserves
everything you put her through.
&& she can hope for a better day.

im crying so bad on the inside;
that i just wanna lay there && die
in front of you

I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to make the mistakes I always make
I don't want to hurt the people I tend to hurt
I don't want to continue to get hurt
I don't want to screw everything up again
I just... I don't want to be here anymore

She may look like she has it all together,
But behind her "everything's ok"s
And "I'm just tired, ok?"s,
Theres something else
She barely makes it through these days.

keep your head up
your colors are so beautiful
when they say you should give up
just raise the volume on your radio

From these cuts I bleed
Of the pain that I never did need
You don't understand
No one understands

When I listen to my cd player,
I turn it up really loud.
So all my thoughts go away.
At least for a little while

sometimes its easier for me to PRETEND
rather than face my feelings. sometimes
its EASIER to try to make it alone rather
than risk getting HURT again. sometimes
its easier to be NUMB towards certain people
so i don't let them get too close. sometimes
i`m scared, but when i act NUMB towards you,
it doesnt mean i don`t CARE...
 it means i care TOO MUCH.

so hold me close but don't get too comfortable
this might be the last time you hear my voice
is this goodbye? or is it goodnight?
i promise to call if you promise not to cry
because every tear you waste on me
isn't worth the air i breathe

this is my broken heart talking
my weak head, my shaky fingers and wet eyes
my loss of faith in love, my aching stomach and
lack of sleep at night, all saying
"I miss you"

the gun is in her mouth
her finger on the trigger
tears slide down her face
not because these are her final breaths
but because she's unable
to tell you she loves you
one last time...

YOUR PERFECT BECAUSE EVERYTHING YOU DO MAKES ME SMILE. BECAUSE EVERY SECOND SPENT WITH YOU IS WORTHWHILE. BECAUSE WHEN YOU LAUGH AT ME I LAUGH TOO. BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE CAN SEE THAT IM DEVOTED TO YOU. BECAUSE I LOVE YOUR EYES AND THE WAY THEY SHINE. BECAUSE YOU DONT TELL LIES AND YOUR SO CUTE WHEN YOU WHINE. BECAUSE WHEN YOU GET MAD YOU CANT HIDE IT. BECAUSE EVEN WHEN YOUR SAD I CAN FIND IT. BECAUSE THE WAY YOU HOLD ME SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY SPINE. BECAUSE YOUR SPIRITS SO FREE AND YOUR SO DAMN FINE. BECAUSE I NEVER STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ITS NOT FAIR. BECAUSE YOUR JUST PERFECT AND NO ONE ELSE CAN COMPARE. <3

i want him to be sitting there
when suddenly i cross his mind
& he thinks to himself
"wow...she's a m a z i n g" <3

smoke me baby like your last cigarette
whisper to me, say "you'll never forget"
could you break my heart a little more?
shove my body up against yours
and kiss me like you mean it
anything worth a taste burns as it goes down

suicide crosses my mind
& I start to cry
I don't know why I slit my wrists
sometimes I want to die
these stupid people lie so much
its like there's no limit

I love the way I live my life
& hate almost everyone in it
but maybe I'll pull that trigger
& end my unhappiness
you'll hear a bang
& just see my body as a bloody mess

cant you see it? she loves you more then you could ever imagine its in her eyes, its in her voice, its in her smile. shes so different when youre around, so much happier. youre the one for her, but you dont see that do you?

Broken hearts, fucked-up lives
broken families, lost time
destorted reality, lost hope
forget it all, do some dope
drink your problems away
make it through just one more day

I begin to drift away as my eyes begin to
close. another day of hiding secrets that
no one will ever know

they all think im fine
they think ive stopped
&& that im better now
but the only thing thats gotten better
was my ways of hiding it

you can take the razor from her hand but you can't take the pain from her heart

she looks at her phone
no missed calls
people have given up on her
& she has given up on them

--inside i'm slowly dying
but the rain will hide my crying.
don't you know my tears will burn the pillow ;
set this place on fire cause i'm tired of your lies..
all ii neededd was a simple "hello"
but the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cryy ;
i gave you my love & then my body never knew such pleasure,
my heart never knew such pain&
you leave me so confused now im all cried out

i dont blame you for walking away ..
id do the same if i saw me.

She is the girl that will wait unnoticably by her locker every day for an extra minute to see him walk down the same hall.  She will turn and stare as he walks with all his friends.  She will watch as the other girls throw themselves at him.  He will not even notice her and walk right by her.  She then closes the locker and walks away with hope that maybe tomorrow he will see her standing there.  Maybe someday he will notice her.

Break down && cry..
no one c a r e s tonight--

I thought I was
           completely
& TOTALLY over you-->
turns out I was wrong<33

THERE'S ALWAYS GONNA BE THAT
1 THING I WISH FOR BUT NEVER
GET.. THAT ONE MISTAKE I CAN
NEVER TAKE BACK ; && MOST OF
ALL, THAT ONE MEMORY I WOULD
DO ANYTHING FOR, JUST 2 HAVE
iT AGAiN        ...     BABY, iT'S YOU <3

Let's be wild & young
Let's be worthless & dumb
Let's break all the rules
Let's be rebellious
LET'S BE IN LOVE

Love you yesterday, love you
still, always have, always will.

Whenever you think about me
just know
I'm thinking of you too
and hoping that you love me
even half as much as
I Love You
That would be good enough for me

I wanna be his one & only i wanna be a part of his life
20 years from now i wanna be his wife
i want to be his perfect little hottie he's always checkin out
i wanna see my first name next to his last
i wanna have his kids 30 years from now
i wanna wake up next to him
i wanna be able to look back at our past
i wanna grow old with him
i wanna be the grandma of his grand-children
80 years from now
I wanna be able to say that we shared a wonderful life we had together
i wanna lay next to him..the day i die

She leans her head on his chest & she falls even more
in love with him with every heart beat

look at her she's beautiful she's radient
yet when you look in
to her eyes
you can see the pain and hurt she's been through.
people ask how such a beautiful girl
could have done such a horrible thing.
it shows the beauty in the breakdown

Her fingers grasped that cigarette, a pitiful attempt not to forget.
His name carved deeply across her chest, directly over where her heart would rest.
Her cheeks still streaked with tears of good-bye, because without him, she chose to die

the scars are forming on her wrists & the tears are dying on her cheeks

cuts & rubber bands, they keep her from showing any real pain

she cuts her wrist
one last time
as she looks in the broken mirror and says
" no ones gonna miss me"

&&if one day;; i start to matter
let me know

so here once again im broken
and sitting on the floor
wondering how much pain is enough
because my wounds
seem to be hurting so much more
ive been through this all before
just living in a cycle
of blood drops and tears
again and again being forced
to face my biggest fears
when will this cycle ever end?

tonight ill stand in the light,
so you can count how many
tears fall from my eyes;;
this time ill be alright,
my heart cant get any worse

She felt far from okay
but sometimes the biggest
lies slip out easier than the
truth.. <|3

oh, don't worry about her. she's always upset.
she's always in love with someone who doesn't love
her back. she's always heart broken, so she's fine.
by now, she's u s e d to it <|3

i honestly have n o i d e a why i cant stop loving you-
i hate your smile && i hate your laugh && i hate
how you cant see how much i love you...

&& i'll be your [[p.e.r.f.e.c.t]] mistake
there’s a girl in my mirror crying tonight
and there is nothing I can tell her to make her feel alright...

Another dead end street
Another love gone wrong
Another shattered dream
Always the same old song...

,- - - - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - - -»
: As people grow up they realize it
: becomes less important to have
: more* friends and more important
: to have real ones
`- - - - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - - -»

I've tried my hardest to forget it,
but a broken heart is murder for the soul

she falls asleep,
dreaming she's in
h i s  a r m s  <3

Even her friends don't know her
she's a question without answers
When did your smile become so fake?
When did the happiness begin to fade away?
When did you become worthless?
When was it exactly that you started to break

if i walked away right now..
W0UlD Y0U C0ME AFTER ME?

Smile big for everyone,
Even when you know what they've done.
They gave you the end but not where to start;
Not how to build, how to tear it apart.

if i ever write a story about my life,
don't be suprised when [ your name ]
appears a billion times

here's to the nights we felt alive
here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
here's to goodbye
tomorrow's gonna come too soon

How could you know,
That behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know that I hurt so much inside?

Heartbroken && softpspoken.
So go on baby, walk right past me... I'm used to it.

when i'm sad
&& feeling blue
i hide in my music
&& forget every memory of you

I took a ride to the city.
Had to get out of this place.
I just can't stand the pity,
When the tears falls down my face.

dont walk in to my life, if your just gonna walk out
dont say you love me if it's not without a doubt
dont say its' the truth if ALL it is, is a lie
don't say hello if your gonna turn around and say goodbye

I was lying to myself.
Now I'm dying in this hell.

fake is the new trend
&& you're all the rage

she refuses to add to the |.|drama|.|
so she hides her pain
and {paints on a smile}
not wanting to be a burden
she pretends to have it ((.together.))
and n o b o d o y knows
that she's [[entirely broken]] inside

LETS WRITE A STORY.
first, there was this girl,
and she really liked this boy.
okay, now you finish <3

&& if one day ... you notice
we haven't talked in a while
it's not because i don't care anymore
it's just because you pushed me away

&& she acts like he's nothing to her --
when really he's her entire world

She just needs a little help
to wash away the pain she's felt.
She wants to feel the healing hands
of someone who understands.

i MAY N0T AlWAYS SH0W iT
BUT KN0W THAT i CARE
&N0 MATTER WHAT
WHENEVER Y0U NEED ME
i Will AlWAYS BE THERE

i could be your TiNKERBELL
&& you could be my PETER PAN
and we could fly away to NEVERLAND

"I didn`t mean to hurt her feelings," he said.
WHAT ARE WE; TEN?
It`s a lot more than hurt feelings. What he
should have said is, "I didn`t mean to break
HER HEART."

Nothing is forever, forever is a lie,
all we have is the time from hello to goodbye
you do what you gotta do, know what you know,
hang on until you can't anymore, & then learn to let go

She'll say she hates you, she'll
say she never loved you. she'll
say she doesn't ever want you
back, but deep down inside the
only possible way she could
mean this is if her fingers were
crossed.

bouquet of clumsy words
a simple melody
this worlds an ugly place
but you're so beautiful

handle with care
she's fragile & fair
he's the first to break her heart
& it just tore her apart
nights are long & sad
dreams filled with love they once had </3

& you wrote me those love songs
with no endings.
such pretty lips
spoke such cruel words
poison me.
make the endings.

There's a song blaring in
Her headphones that reminds
Her of a boy who will never care.

Hope For The Best,
Expect for the Worst,
Life Isn't A Movie, It's All
       Unrehearsed

it's like half of me wants to be with him
& the other half wants to get over him
i guess i'll always have that something for him. 

cupid..works for the devil

It's amazing the things you realize when you
lose someone you get mad at yourself for not
saying the things you could have a million times
you take for granted the days spent doing
nothing when you couldve been with them.
anyone can be taken at any time in our lives
but we always wait until their gone to say
the things we never had the courage to before

so pop that pill
and put another fake smile on your face
just cause the sun rises tomorrow
doesnt mean you`ll make it through today

Smile like you mean it.
Don't throw your dreams away.
I know it hurts, but baby
the pain will go away.

You might imagine that a person would resort to self-mutilation only under extremes of pressures but once I had crossed that line the first time, taken that fateful step off the cliff, then almost any reason was a good enough reason, almost any provocation enough. Cutting was my all-purpose solution. My scars ought to be a charm bracelet of memories, each a permanent reminder of its precipitating event but maybe the most disturbing thing I can say about the history of my cutting is that for the most part, I cant even remember the whens and whys behind those wounds. It didnt take much to make me cut :: frustration, humiliation, insecurity, guilt, remorse, loneliness, I cut them all out. They were like poison

she sits in the corner...
glazing at the blade,
so scared to go through with it...
yet so afraid to stay

She will pray ever night for you- praying to not just for you but for you to fall completely in love with her and sweep her off her feet.  Thats all she really wants.

&& all she needs to hear is that she is wanted
and that she isn't just a worthless girl ...

&There she goesAgain
     believing in something that is PROBABLY
             NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN

Cutting, Crying, Hurting Inside. Is My Blood Pretty? Do My Tears Bring Joy To Your Eyes? I Do This, Because Im Hurting Inside

she's an artists
a good painter actually
see that smile on her face
its her most famous piece

I stare at it,
the metal glint mocking me
the sharp edge filling me with longing
and it's all I can do not to
break right then and there

Sometimes, she swears she's okay,
she's strong, making the right choices
And other times, she turns on the radio station
that makes her think of him
and cuts herself as she sobs,
singing weakly along with the songs

she looks down at her damaged arm && all the harm she has done.every regret she lives with && she'd do anything to go back to the day she held the razor in her hand, twist the story around && put it down. she'd do anything to get rid of her awful scars && her painful memories

it wasn't a suicide attempt..........
it was an escape from everything awful

her wrist is pressed against the knife...
laying there, silently
starin' at the wall
choosin' her fate
does she need a life at all?
knife in one hand, gun in the other
does it really matter what decision she makes?
the gun drops to the ground,
the knife slices the once non-harmed wrist
her eyes turn from a pale blue to grey
her life once mattered
but now only her grave...

She's so glamorous in that
heart broken, shattered spirit,
dead on the inside kind of way.

shes choking on every word
hoping not to show a tear
but the truth is she cant function
when you're not near

He takes the razor out of her hands and says:
"Every cut to your wrist, is a stab to my heart."

it`s like we`re
more than just friends
but less than lovers.

suffocating students as they attempt to take notes in class?
I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody.
A rock would tear that motha up in about 2 seconds.
When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock.
Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper
I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say,
"Oh crap, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you.

hey, is your heart still beating?
i can't stop the bleeding
i've lost you completely

resting my head against the window pane,
looking out to the other lane,
wondered why you've changed
&& if your ever gonna come back again

you [s|h|a|t|t|e|r|e|d] my heart
but somehow you always
find a way for me to hand it
right back to you

Dear mom,
Have you even noticed the way I've been shaking lately,
the three knives missing from the kitchen,
the pins and needles gone from your drawer...
how I never come downstairs anymore,
the look in my eyes, the sound of my voice...
it's completely different.
Have you noticed the long sleeves
and sweatshirts everyday,
the wristbands, the band aids, the blood...
have you noticed any of it? No? Didn't think so

 the note they found
didnt say much
just that she missed
his kiss and his touch
the newspapers screamed
the harshest words
about that boy
who killed that girl

______________________

You broke her heart
crushed her confidence
raised her insecurities
and all you have to say is
 WE CAN STILL BE F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Broken, bruised, forgotten, sore
to fucked up to care anymore

another poem, another line
[ a n o t h e r g i r l ]
pretending she`s fine.

blood means you`re related ;; it doesn`t
mean you`re family - - boy meets world

And times like these that I
just want to spill my heart out
to the world just so you know
how I feel about you.

Somthing i noticed about you is that you can always make me laugh.
Even when there's a sky full of clouds & their all raining on me..

`& she strikes a pose
and dies inside. .

on the outside
you're not the same kid anymore
you've been through too much lately
but deep down, there will always be
a part of you that rejects reality
that is eternally hopeful

sweetie, when does "im fine" ever truely mean "im fine"?

I thought that you out of all people would be there to save me when I started drowning, but then I realized you were the one pulling me down all along.

I FEEL LIKE A BIG FAKER BECAUSE I'VE BEEN PUTTING MY LIFE BACK T0GETHER && N0B0DY KN0WS IT

Give me a reason
To wake up
&& face the light

makeup chases the tears down her face.
the handprints left on her throat.
he hits her...she'd ask for more.

And he thought to himself that she
would always be there waiting but she
was fed up SHE COULDN'T let her
heart keep breaking so she just finally
stopped caring. </3

Every once in a while this unbelieveable
sadness comes over my heart & breaks it all
over again. Not because the way things are..
but the way things could have been..

i don't think you understand how hard
it is to talk to you as 'just a friend''
i wanna tell you how much you mean
to me but i just [( n e v e r c a n )]

am I crazy for wanting you?
Baby do you think you could want me too?
I dont wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide.

can`t you see it? she loves you
more then you could ever imagine
it`s in her eyes, it`s in her voice, it`s
in her smile. she`s so different when
you`re around, so much happier. you`re
the one for her, but you don`t see that
do you?

i lied when i said i could
take it, because i can't take
living without you - -

 it doesnt matter how long you've
know him.. if hes kept you smiling
since day one don't lose him <3